Funny how when I finally figured out how to get back on this blog, I get writers block. Earlier this afternoon I had plenty that I wanted to write. I was weeding the arena, so had plenty of time to think.
I soooo enjoy living where we are in Maui. Will be going back to CA mid-March. Found fares that were good and multiplied by the number of people we are it makes a big difference in the pocket book.
Decided to give up teaching this next semester for two reasons: 1 cause we will be leaving half way through and 2 cause I am stressed just trying to get things in order around our mini-ranch.
I really pray that this next year will be much better in terms of all the separation between me and Robert. This past year we have been apart more than all other times put together. His job has required him to travel alot for long periods of time, and the kids and I cannot afford to follow him back and forth every time he picks up and leaves.
Though even when he is around, he is consumed by work. I feel neglected and wish him all the best and hope he realises his dreams, but in the meantime I am exhausted and cannot physically keep up with the responsibilities that I have. I eat like there is no tomorrow, always hoping that it will give me energy to get through the day, but of course all that really does is make things worse. I press on the best I can because the kids need someone to take care of them, but if I could I would leave for an extended period of time and take care of myself. (sleep, sleep, sleep with NO interuptions)
Don't mean for this to be a "woe is me pitty party" as I know things could be soooo much worse, but I am pretty close to my wits end.
I do have alot to be thankful for. The kids are fun to be with and to watch grow up..I just wish I had Someone to share it with that wasn't stressed and preocupied with other things.
Time to get Tessa from youth group...the running around never ends :)
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